I usually spend a lot of time finding the right image to go with the post
I’m going to write, but today I didn’t feel like it, so I just chose an image
I like that has nothing to do with anything.

If you like this image, click on it and you can download the larger version.

I’m overwhelmed right now.  Since I’m not good at organizing my time
and my priorities it is causing me a lot of stress. I really need to get
organized!

Between getting ready for Christmas and starting my wedding plans,
I am feeling like a chicken with its head cut off.. running here and
there and not able to focus on anything long enough to feel like I
got much accomplished.

What I’m longing for is several days in a row that I had nothing else
to do but create!

I feel a little embarrased that I’m so disorganized that I can’t just
capture some time each day to do art.  How do you other artists
manage your art time?  I seem to be an all-or-nothing type person.
If I’m doing art, then everything else goes by the wayside.  I come
“to” later and my house is a wreck and my bills aren’t paid.. etc, etc.

This is a trait about myself that I’ve disliked for a very long time.
Therehave been other traits that I’ve disliked and I was eventually
able to just accept the ones that I couldn’t change.  But this one
haunts me because I don’t seem to be able to either accept or
change it.

So, that’s what I’m dealing with today and hope that some of
my readers have some great suggestions for me.

I’ve been married before, but I’ve never had a church wedding.  And let me tell you that things have changed since 1970!  The coolest thing is the internet!  I signed up for a service by David’s Bridal called Our Wedding Day. They have everything you could possibly need to plan a wedding.  I guess a new trend is to send out e-cards announcing the date for your wedding.  Here’s one I created.

We met with the wedding coordinator at the church on Sunday.  That is so cool to have someone to help me with all the plans.  We worked on the budget last night.  It looks pretty smooth so far, but I know there will be lots of challenges before it’s done.

Mister’s son will be his best man and my sons will be his groomsmen.  My daughter-in-law will be my matron of honor and Laddan’s girlfriend as well as Mister’s son’s girlfriend will be my bridesmaids.  My granddaughter will be the flower girl and my youngest grandson will be the ring bearer.  I need to find a role for my two older grandsons who will be 6 and 8 at that time.  Any ideas out there?

As you know if you’ve been reading my blog, this man is the man I dreamed of all my life.  He is everything I’ve ever wanted so it’s truly a fairy tale and I’m going to have a fairy tale wedding.

Don’t ever think that any point in life is too late for any of your dreams to come true!

I have been trying to use affirmations more since I recently discovered some old ones that I found have actually worked to change me from the inside out.  I sometimes make cards from the affirmations, such as the one in this image.  I also create whole journal pages of an affirmation.  With these small cards (about the size of an ATC- 2 1/2 x 3 1/2 in) I can tape them up around my house, put them in books to find as a surprise, carry them in my purse, prop them against my monitor or place them on the dashboard of my car.

I chose this particular one today because I have not let my light shine very much the past few days.  I’ve had some challenges that have required me to go in my cave and process a lot of things.  When I am in that mode I’m not very shiny.

But the good news is, and it always turns out this way, is that when I come out of the cave I’m just as shiny as ever.  Having gone through the pain of deep soul work is like having a spiritual tune-up.    A little bit more of the gunk gets cleaned out and my inner parts are working a little better than before.

I am so very grateful that I’m willing to look at my emotional pain and not run from it.  I did that for years and years.  Running led me down a destructive path.  Thanks to a lot of loving, patient people I learned that no matter how bad it hurts, it’s better to really have a look at what’s going on inside than to run from it or push it further down.

I truly believe that when we feel sad, angry, scared or hurt it is like the warning lights on a car’s dashboard. It’s a signal that something needs to be maintained or repaired.  If we take the time to do soul maintenance, just as we maintain our cars,  our spiritual well being stays in alignment and we are able to let our lights shine everywhere we go.