Have you ever had so much good going on in your life that it scared you?  Things in my life seem to just keep getting better and better.

For quite a while I’ve been able to find the good in almost any situation.  Even the worst of times, I could find some small snippet of good somewhere.  But what I’m talking about now is an overflowing abundance of good. 

I can’t find very much negative in my life at all right now.  I wonder how I’ve been so blessed?  I don’t know how my boys could make me any prouder.  And they are both with women that I love and admire so much.  My grandkids are adorable and healthy and smart and beautiful.  I have an abundance of friends that are so good to me a show me so much love.

I have family here in Tulsa that all get along really well, and I know that’s not always the case.  We have a lot of fun together and support one another.

I have found the man of my dreams and he fills my days with joy.

I love my work and get to meet new people all the time and stay in touch with many fascinating people every single day!

So, why is all this scary?  It’s what I’ve always wanted.  A life filled with love and harmony.  I wake up every day excited about the possibilities.  I wonder if the fear is that it will all go away.  Or maybe that I don’t deserve all this happiness and someone will find out it was given to the wrong person.

I doubt that I’m the only person who struggles with accepting the good when it comes.  Does  anyone relate to this?  And do you have any suggestions about how to accept the good and not question it?

I have been out of pocket for a while.  It feels good to be back and blogging again!

Mister had surgery so I’ve been helping him out. Then last weekend we went to Ft. Worth to see my kids. It was a wonderful visit.

This picture is of us at Billy Bob’s.  It’s a dance hall at the Stock Yards in Ft. Worth.  It’s a huge place that has live music, dancing, and a full blown bull riding rodeo right inside the place!

That was Friday, then on Sat I got to spend the day with my grandbabies.  They are so precious!!

This is my beautiful granddaughter, Isabella.   This is the first time I’ve ever gotten her to smile for the camera.

My friend Denise has started putting her art on Etsy.  I love this woman and I love her art!

She’s a watercolor genius and a photographer extraordinaire.  The image here is a water color that she scanned and then enhanced digitally.

Here is what she wrote about this piece, entitled “I Broke Free”

freedom to dance
freedom to play
breaking away from the old
and adventuring into the unknown

dancing into a bliss journey

Please go visit Denise at Etsy.

Please indulge me while I brag and wax nostalgic.  There is a new series on TruTV called Black Gold.  It’s all about oil drilling rigs and it’s filmed in my hometown, Midland, TX.

As you may know I had to move to OK last Nov and I’m so homesick.  Watching this show was so fun because I get to see the countryside, the streets of my town and even some people I know.

Because drilling is the only industry in Midland, my ex, my son, and the husbands of all my friends are in the oil business, or have been.  It’s amazing to see all this on tv now!

You can see all about the show on the web site.  Here’s an interesting tidbit from the website.  On the main page, about half way down you’ll see Rooster McConaughey.  He is a friend of my ex, and his son, Madison, is a friend of my son’s.  Madison’s wife Christina was my vet.  Go watch the video of Rooster. He’s a real character and you can hear the way I talk by listening to his accent   Oh, Rooster is Matthew McConaughey’s brother!

I’m not sure what time the show comes on but it was on last night at 9 Central.  They probably have a schedule on the website.

Proud to be a Chocolate Dork

I found out about Dork Central from Jennifer Louden‘s newsletter.  It appears that Dork Central is geared toward young women, but I found it to be a marvelous site.  I took the “What Kind of Dork Are You?” Quiz and above you can see that I’m a Chocolate Dork.  I can’t remember the exact wording of the explanation of my particular brand of dorkiness but I remember it had to do with being a “sweetie” 

At this fun site you can sign the Dork Manifesto.  There’s lots more, too.  For instance you can complete secret assignments for “Big old dorky dorkfaces”.   LOL

There just can’t be too much fun in our lives, so just relax, head on over there and have a great time!

I just read this post on Terri’s blog about the strands of potential in each of us, and how life can push that potential back into dark places.

One thing I know for certain, from my own experience, is that if we hiding part of ourselves – any part – or holding back anything, we are not being authentic.  And if we are not being authentic then we cannot find that magic within us that is our unique magic.

I have journaled the most in my life when I have been alone.  Or when I have been lonely.  There may have been people around but they did not feel safe to share myself with, so I used my journal.  That was very healthy and has served me well.

However, over the past year or so, I have been blessed with lots of people around me who are very safe as well as helpful and encouraging.  None of these people live near me so my communication with them has been email, IM or on the phone.  I jsut realized today that I have let that communication take the place of journaling.  I don’t want to give up my interaction with my friends, but I know that there is a void where journaling needs to be.

Sharing on a deep level with a trusted friend is something that cannot be replaced with anything else.  If that person has your best interest at heart, their perspective can often help you see something you’d never see otherwise.  Also, that level of sharing is a bond of love that is one of the most beautiful things on earth.  I am so blessed to have so many women friends, and a guy friend as well as my kids that I can share with like this.

Today, however, I have some things in my mind that I know I can’t even talk about yet.  I need to journal in order to sort it all out.  To get a little deeper to identify what it is that’s bothering me.  Sometimes I feel something like a goatburr sticking at me but I don’t know what it is that’s wrong.  I just know that this feeling is a warning that something’s not right.  Until  I sit and write all about it, the truth isn’t going to show itself.

So, it’s back to journaling, for real.  I want to clear out anything that’s in the way of my unique magic. I want my golden thread of uniqueness to have a clear path to shine.

I nearly always carry my camera with me.  I am ready to snap anything that might be interesting to share in my blog, or use as an image in art.  But, you know what? I hardly ever actually get it out and use it.

Partly because I’m not a good enough photographer to catch things quickly that actually turn out good.  But mostly because I’m embarassed.  I dont’ want to look like a tourist plus I worry about people getting upset with me for taking their picture.

I hadn’t given it a lot of thought until yesterday when I saw such an amazing thing and would have loved to have taken pictures of it.

I was in the dollar store when I looked out into the parking lot and saw a very, very large man stuck in his car window – half in, half out.  Apparently when he returned to his car, a car had parked so close to him that he couldn’t open the driver door.  Why he didn’t go around to the other door, I can’t imagine, but he didn’t. Instead, he thought it would be a good idea to crawl in the window.

The driver who parked next to him finally returned and moved her car, but by this time the poor guy was just stuck.   He was able to gradually push and push to get himself unlodged and get out of the window.  Then he opened his door, got in and drove off.

But, alas, I have no pictures.  I only have pictures of my sweet grandbabies   They let me take all the pictures I want.

Do you take snapshots of random things?  If so, please leave a comment with any  suggestions on how I might get the nerve to start taking more photos.  Or how you approach situations where you want to take pictures.

This is a day of wonderful happenings!!  I’m a featured artist today on Skwiggazine.

Skwiggazine is an online community for artists. Their mission is to inspire and promote each other.  Please take a look around and see if it you think it might be a community for you.  I’ve been amazed at the dedication and altruistic help that they offer the members!

My art and bio will be posted at noon today on the front page. Not sure what time zone, so it may already be up.

I’m just so danged blessed!! 

My friend Lotus posted some art that her son did on her blog.  He apparently had seen her visiting my blog, so that’s what he drew when he drew his mom at the computer.  How cool is this???

His name is Alex.  Don’t you just love this?  In case you can’t read the small print on Lotus’ monitor, she’s on the Creative Clown site   Go visit her blog to read Alex’s description of his drawing.  It’s wonderful!

Wow!!!  I am so humbled.  I have been chosen for an Arte y Pico Award, which was created “to be given to bloggers who inspire others with their creative energy and their talents, be it writing or artwork in all medias.”
What makes it especially gratifying is it is awarded from peer to peer, creative to creative. I received the award from my friend Nici of Art Shaped World. Thank you so much, Nic!!! Please visit Nici’s blog and see her amazing art!!  Also please visit each of the five blogs I’ve listed below which I have found to be inspirational.  Leaving comments is really encouraging to bloggers so if you have the time, let them know you stopped by.

I am presenting  the  Arte Pico award to the following five blogs.
To be listed is considered a “special honor.” The Arte y Pico Award is meant to be paid forward to bloggers who merit recognition for their creative efforts.

A Creative Journal by Heather

Back Yard by Eliza

Layers Upon Layers by Cyndi

Honor Yourself by Terri

Judith Heartsong by Judith